Sunday, May 31, 2009

Saturday, May 30, 2009

stars and sunshine

Give me a million nights like this one
I stood today in front of a room of people whom I didn't know and who didn't know me, my familiar face was my sunshine in a room of strangers.
People I speak to people I turn to but people who will never understand me. I stood today surrounded by people but alone and I handed them a piece of my heart.
I looked at the sheet of words and my mind screamed FAKE. So I stood up straighter and in my shaky voice I winged it. And I think some of the right words came out.
I stood tonight on the edge of our concrete. Her heart and mind held on this landing holding us above the tides. Our whole lives it was always her and I. The lake before us and the sky full of clouds, the stars making fleeting appearances and we spilled our hearts and minds over peanut butter toast and green apples.
She asked me what he was like and I gushed, I told her stories of our laughs and our love and our spilt coffee midnight drives. And I realized you could never never be dead to me.
We shivered and huddled on our little island and whispered about the world around us, our music echoing on the water.

We ask ourself do we know what love is?
Our thoughts drift to darker subjects and our vocabulary restricts to “i just don't know”
He doesn't understand, maybe he never will. Maybe I'm kidding myself maybe that's what love is, just telling each other and not understanding but caring anyway. Maybe I'm lost again. But I've never felt more found.
The step I'll take means all these different things but what is it to me?
Maybe it's being me that counts. Maybe I can be a fuck up. Maybe that's how I'll glorify god, by living, by being happy, by doing things to make things work. Maybe people will see me and smile because I'll shine, my music my love my life my god my feet taking me places I never would have gone. Maybe I'll still fuck up maybe I'll still be depressed sometimes but just maybe this time I'll make it work... fuck ups and all.
We walk up our road and the stars claim victory to the clouds and a song plays in our hearts the melody sighing over the frozen ashfault.
Our minds are far above us in a sky of frigid empty air and sparks of freedom, and our hearts are right here walking together towards the fairy lights of my driveway singing this song with all the world in our hands..
God give me a million nights like this, where our souls are lifted and brushed of the dust, when our love is shining in our eyes and if every night is like this we wont be brought down by the weight of the world..



Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Everything - Lifehouse.